I'm so blessed! I went to bed last night feeling so content and happy. I was thinking and feeling how blessed I really am. I had my husband right next to me, sleeping contently. My baby was in the room next door, sleeping away as well. Is it bad that I actually felt a sense of guilt for feeling so blessed? I often think, is it normal to be so happy, content, and feel so blessed in life? I always answer my own question with a simple, "Yes.". I realize that before, in life, I was searching for what I really don't know. And my search for what I really don't know brought me exactly that...I really don't know! Ever since last year when I prayed to God to lead me in a different direction and promised I would follow no matter how crazy or nonsensical the idea appeared, life has turned upside down amazing. That's what happens when I follow HIS will! Amazing! No wonder I'm so happy! I've turned from "it's all about me and what I want" to "it's all about HIM and what HE wants for me" and I've come to really accept and understand that GOD wants to shower me with more love, blessings, joy, everything! and anything more than I or anyone else could ever give! THAT is why I'm so happy and blessed! I'm starting to get over my feelings of guilt for feeling like I have the best life in the world and am the most blessed person because this is how everyone should feel when they're walking with God. Of course I still have my ups and downs. My tears and worries....just ask my hubby :) But now I'm walking WITH God and not just lollygagging along beside Him halfheartedly.
I've known about the phrase, "It's the little things that count!" but it's so true! The little things in life, when you really take a look and experience them, bring you pure joy and contentment. Every morning I wake up to the sounds from my little girl in the next room. I watch her for a little bit, thanking God for a new day with my little dreamsicle! She lifts her head to look at me and gives me the most precious little smile that melts my heart! She gets up, I change her, feed her, and we go in to wake up daddy! I just love these moments! They are PRICELESS!
On the way to taking daddy to work this morning, we stopped by Starbuck's, and I got a morning coffee from there for the first time in 4 months (thank you $1 off coupon) and a pumpkin bread! Usually I enjoy my morning french press at home. I was amazed at how much joy I had just drinking my revitalizing cup of coffee and sharing pumpkin bread with my hubby while I was sitting in the back seat next to my daughter. Wow! So much joy in something so small.
Maybe that's one of the true tricks of life! Finding EXTREME joy in the smallest of things! I feel so acultural. We don't have TV, but I can't imagine there's commercials that promote being content sitting next to your baby during a car ride. Or finding extreme joy in holding your husbands hand while watching a movie at night after your baby is fast asleep and then going to check on her just because you smile every time you see your little blessing! I don't see any menus at restaurants that, instead of the value menu or the supersize selections, have the "pure enjoyment in the small things section".
I don't need bigger, better, newer, or stronger. I need exactly what I have...and I have more than what I need! Wow! I need only God's love for me, and I have exactly that! And because He loves me, He is showering me with so many more things than I have ever wanted or realized I wanted. It IS finding joy in the smallest of things! It is NOT having what I want but wanting what I already have!
